You Are Not Out Of Gas
One day I was practicing listening to the Holy Spirit. I was in Tennessee driving in my truck. In the back I had 6 or 7 five gallon gas cans. I had used most of them but I knew I had one left. As I drove down the country roads God would say, “take a left,” or “go straight ahead.” Hour after hour I drove until I saw that my gas gauge read empty. I saw a gas station coming up and I ask God “can I stop?” The Holy Spirit said, “no.” I kept driving and sure enough I ran out of gas. Climbing into the back of my truck, I took out the remaining full gas can and emptied it into the tank. I continued driving until my gas gauge read empty once again. I was in the middle of nowhere and I had no idea how far it was to the next town. I said to God, “I am out of gas, I have to stop.” God replied.”no, you are not out of gas, keep going.” I really did not feel like walking or trying to hitch hike that day and so I argued with God and told Him that I had no gas. God simply said, “you are not out of gas” to which I said, “yes I am, all my gas cans are empty and my gas gauge reads empty; I am definitely out of gas.”
I am not proud of my next decision. I did not listen to God and when I ran across a gas station I stopped and fueled up. I felt badly but I just did not want to walk that day. I continued on my cross-country journey and eventually wound up back in Seattle Washington at my parents farm some 4000 miles later. After a week or so I started cleaning out the back of my truck, removing all the things I had brought with me, until I came to my empty gas cans. I took out one after the other and they were all very light except the last one: it was full of Gas! I had carried one gas can all those miles not realizing that it was full. Immediately the Holy Spirit said “I told you so” and, feeling very sheepish, I said, “sorry.”
God is always right and when we believe our own eyes more than what He says we are always wrong. I often think back to that lesson when I’m faced with believing God even though what He says seems opposite of what I think. The truth is that I was “not out of Gas” that day but just “out of faith.” I pray that God will help me trust Him more in the future.