Episode 14: Doubt

Jan23
by Michael King on January 23, 2019 at 2:15 pm
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I don’t know how to act any longer

Michael,

“What I am feeling right now is that I want to know you deeper and deeper. I need to feel you as much as possible and express this love I feel for you in some way. If there was a spiritual way to may love to you, that is how I would want to be with you right now. That is how I feel in my spirit anyway.”

Esther,

“I was thinking much same the other day, but thought may not be appropriate to say anything, so I didn’t.”

Michael,

“It is like I need your spiritual body in some deeper way.  I hope God brings some clarity on this point. It is really beginning to consume my spirit like “burning coals” in the Song of Solomon. A whole ocean could not put this quench this eternal flame I feel towards you, this longing to become one and have you inside me.”

Esther,

“And it doesn’t does it, because this love doesn’t feel weak or distant at all.”

Words are not enough

Michael,

“Like I say, words fail to describe what is happening between us.  It is just getting stronger and stronger.  Love you dear.”

Michael and Esther fall deeper and deeper into God’s love and as they do a whole new door of experiences in the Spirit seem to swing open.  However, just when they reach one plateau that seems higher than high, God does something even more precious and wonderful.  Like the Queen of Sheba, Michael and Esther exclaim “The half has not been told!”

It is our natural minds than have barred us from these places in heaven that are our birthright.  Likewise, our earthly reason imprisons us, keeping us from true life.  Walking in the Spirit is much more than we have been told or could even imagine.  All the scriptures are living and full of experiences, beyond time and this creation.  When we commit to live by every word that proceeds out of the mouth of our Father, His word lives in and through us.

A new day

The next day, Esther says,

“This love I am feeling towards you and God is like a constant tightening and drawing. Only God could create something so bottomless, it just has no ending or beginning.”

Michael,

“Him my love, yes, the song of songs is just one big description of a spiritual connection. I looks like a earthly romance to others but it is much more than that.”

Esther,

“Yes totally, it’s why it’s key. I love song of songs because you really feeling the intimacy with God.  Through Solomon’s words  you ‘get it’ and come to understand divine intimacy. Divine intimacy is a rod of division between wheat a chaff.  It separates the wolves from His sheep.  It quickly divides like a two edged sword.  Imagine if all Christians truly embraced God’s love for what it is, imagine what that would do not just to them but the world.”

Esther Muses

The next time we speak, Esther muses,

“Musing changes you fundamentally each time you open yourself to doing it.  You can never go back to previous states of understanding when you do. It, in a way, takes something from you to change your understandings of the world. You wouldn’t call them revelations if they were not new and new things are ‘needed’ to bring them into being.  For something to be new something old has to go to make space.

People don’t really understand what happens behind the scenes during the birthing of revelation.  Most don’t understand what the people giving the revelations sometimes endure to do so.  As liberating on the spirit as revelation is…it isn’t always liberating in the physical world existence of the person.  The more the Spirit wants to be and live and exist, the more the world and flesh has to die or recede. I think there is always the exact same distance between the world and the Spirit. As one moves forward, the other moves back and vice versa, so distance stays same

The freedom to muse

This spiritual journey can be a lonely one and a rough ride, but I would not change being spiritually in tune for a zombie human existance, sleepwalking through life to death eternal.  I am glad I found someone to walk through it with, who at least gives me space to muse out of my mind to get clarity on it even if I don’t understand everything. These things just being stuck in your mind, going endlessly round, sends me literally crazy. Being with you has given me an outlet and God is removing those boundaries I’ve built around myself bit by bit. I’ve been thinking, “what has happened to normal understandable boundaries?”  I am beginning to struggle with knowing what is right or wrong.  I don’t know how to act any longer.

I’m feeling a bit conflicted here

Michael,

“I have been feeling that lately, that there is some dialogue going on inside you.  Kind of a tug of war in your mind and heart. I can’t put my figure on it. It feels like like winding up one of the toy airplanes with those long rubber bands.  First you see twists, then the knots, then double knots, and you wonder how far you can go before you need to let it fly or something breaks.”

Esther,

“I think that maybe my concept of normality and known acceptability is trying to hold me back a bit.  However, my eagerness to see this out there and find out where its going is fighting that tendency.  The bottom line for me is that, in my spirit, I feel God powerfully in what’s happening between us. I’m trying not to be sensible and reason led but more God-led and trusting His voice rather than knowledge I suppose.”

Doubt too, shall pass

Michael,

“I would rather risk everything and see it through to where it is going. What I have to do is just force myself to say exactly what comes to my mind through my spirit.  This is really difficult because I find myself equivocating a lot when I should just be saying what is in my heart.”

Esther,

“Please don’t worry that my doubt is making me want to run out or anything dramatic that that. I’m loving all this and I thank God for thinking I good enough or worthy enough to be here in it.”

Michael.

“I am not sensing you are running.”

Dropping the “ladylike” attitude

Esther,

“I just gotta drop the, “it’s not ladylike” attitude when speaking of these things too. I have no problem with speaking about most things openly, but for me, intimacy is not as easy.”

Michael,

“We are just being called to deeper and deeper intimacy and I think it is really scary for each of us.”

Esther,

“I know and I agree, I think I just worried about wrecking things between us by saying the wrong thing or speaking inappropriately.”

Michael,

“Hon, I really need you to just let go of that fear.  I want you a raw as you feel to be.  Sleep on it.  Night night.

 Eternal Flame by The Bangles

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Come, Let Us Go Up To The Mountain Of The Lord

Jan22
by Michael King on January 22, 2019 at 8:00 am
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Preface

The knowledge of good kills just as effectively as the knowledge of evil. God forebade both to the human race. Why? The reason is that God designed us to live by revelation alone. Therefore
every moment of every day, whenever we don’t know something or have a question, we simply ask God and He gives us wisdom from above.

Trying to understand the things of God without His Spirit is like trying to move a pile of sand, one grain at a time, with tweezers. It’s theoretically possible, but that method is wholly inadequate to the task.

Likewise, our natural minds, without the illumination of the Holy Spirit, cannot know the things His Spirit. He is simply too vast to know except through the direct downloading of YHWH’s Rhema into our minds.

Jesus says,

“ Jesus answered and said unto him, Art thou a master of Israel, and knowest not these things? 1 Verily, verily, I say unto thee, We speak that we do know, and testify that we have seen; and ye receive not our witness.  If I have told you earthly things, and ye believe not, how shall ye believe, if I tell you of heavenly things?”

John 3:9-12

In this essay, I am going to share what I am presently seeing and hearing from my Father. If you like, you can search the scriptures to see if these things be true. However, even a doctor of the law, like Nicodemus, can be told the truth and still not understand if they will not believe. Knowing these things has nothing to do with me being anyone special, but everything to do with simply receiving His revelation. God’s Rhema (living word) is for everyone and is how He meant for all of us to live forever from the very beginning.

Having said that…

In northern Eden, there was a mountain. On the sides of this high place lay a city. In this city dwelt YHWH (God), Seraphim, Cherubim and an innumerable company of Angels. This is the mount of the congregation.

This original city of peace was built four square with twelve Gates. It’s streets were of such fine gold they were transparent. Within this golden city there was a temple where God dwelt. This temple had three holy places: the outer court, inner court, and the Holy of Holies. God dwelt in the inner chamber seated in His throne above the Cherubim.

Before this city lay a great lake, like a sea of glass, and out of that lake flowed the river of life. This was a perfect world, created in harmony, peace and willing submission. Everyone and everything flowed together as one in the presence of Almighty God. In this paradise, God planted a Garden eastward in Eden. Forming man from the dust of the earth, God breathed His life into Adam, making him a living soul.

Each of us has a personal destiny in God

Man, created a little lower than the angels, is destined to ascend the mountain of God. Caught up by His Spirit, we will go up into the great city of our King to join our brethren in the mount of the congregation. There, in New Jerusalem we will take our place at YHWH’s side as His queen.

Originally, everyone who would ever be born was written in the book of life. Only through sin were some erased. Now, through the sacrifice of Jesus Christ we can be re-written into that little book and be born again into the New Creation of God. This is what Salvation means.

Sin is not an original creation of this world. Sin entered this realm, carried by a fallen Seraph named Lucifer. The Chief Musician, in her rebellion, and as a last ditch effort to prevent God’s judgement upon her, tempted Eve to taste of the forbidden fruit. Adam, realizing what Eve had done, ate of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil also, hoping that His Father would spare them both.

The consequences of sin

Upon learning of His children’s sin, YHWH did not kill them as Lucifer hoped, but performed the first blood sacrifice on their behalf. A lamb gave it’s life for their transgression, and the Creator of heaven and earth clothed their shame. However, God cursed the ground for Adam’s sake, multiplied Eve conception and pain in child birth, and cursed the serpent who caused all this in the first place. YHWH told the serpent that one day the woman’s seed would be her doom. Moreover, immortality was no longer their birthright, for in the day that they ate thereof (1000 years), both Adam and his wife perished.

Since that day, there has been a titanic struggle for domination between God and His angels and Lucifer (now called the Devil) and her demons. The fallen wife of the most high feels that if she can prove that mankind cannot live sinless, perfect lives, then God cannot judge her either. Thus fallen lucifer temps and accuses all mankind daily before God, trying to prove her case for being pardoned.

Jesus paid the price for our sin

However, when Jesus gave up the ghost on calvary, all was settled and that great dragon’s fate was sealed forever. Jesus took upon himself the sins of the whole world and died upon a tree in our place. Christ did what no one else could do, prove that mankind was worthy to ascend to the mount of the Most High as His queen forever.

Now, Luficer knows she has but a short time. Yet, though even the demons realize they are bound for judgment, still they aid and abet the chief musician in a bid to dominate the earth. Once before the flood, and 6 times after the flood, the Devil sought to dominate and rule the kingdoms of this world through force. Now, we stand on the precipice of the last world government of the Antichrist. Through this man of sin, Lucifer seeks to sit in the temple of the mount, in the holy of holies, and declare herself to be God.

The Millennium

God isn’t through with this earth or its people yet. Even after the Battle of Armageddon, there is at least 1000 years where God rebuilds the Israelite kingdom. The Jewish people return to the Law and this time keep it. An strong angel binds Satan and her ungodly hordes for a millennia in the bottomless pit. No one remembers our age, of which many are so proud, except in myth and cautionary tales. We will be to the millennium as the pre-flood world is to us: forgotten.

After a 1000 years of peace, God releases Satan from the pit for a little season. Lucifer knows her time is short and seeks to destroy God’s people and the holy city. Armies of the earth gather together in the great battle of Gog and Magog, encompassing Jerusalem round about. At that time, Israel realizes they crucified Jesus and weep as if they had lost an only begotten child. God’s chosen believe all is lost, but Christ returns and they accept him as their Messiah.

God creates a New Heavens And New Earth

We do not know how long that the earth will remain after this time, but we do know that at some point God will roll this heaven and earth up like a scroll and it will be no more. In that day, God speaks forth a new creation, a New Heavens and New Earth wherein dwells righteousness. The heavenly Jerusalem, the original city of Eden which YHWH removed, will descend from Heaven with a shout, with the voice of an archangel and the tabernacle of God will be with men for evermore. “

God declares,

 “… It is done. I am Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the end. I will give unto him that is athirst of the fountain of the water of life freely. He that overcometh shall inherit all things; and I will be his God, and he shall be my son.”

Revelation 21:5-7

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