Episode 9: A Restless Nights Sleep
Our Spirit’s Playtime
Esther said about last nights sleep,
“You know I went sleep giving my spirit permission to go travelling. Next I know I’m waking up at, dunno what time, between 3 and 4 am…my spirit was going crazy really strong reactions powerful even…I don’t remember a dream or anything so not sure what that was about…wondering if you were in dunno going through something or praying or feeling me or anything about that time.
It really was strong almost sensual overload if that’s the right way to describe it, but really felt closer than close wanting even closer. Anyway said n asked it now…will zippit hope you sleep well and maybe you will be woken in such a way.”
You heard me as I wrote
Michael replied,
“Good muse. Amazing how God is just allowing us to start to understand the spiritual realm. Won’t hear these things in Sunday school!
Well, on my side of the pond, when you woke up is when I was writing the latest post, “The way of a man with a maid.” I listened “Gimmie Shelter” by Playing For Change over and over while I wrote. While I typed, I literally had to suspend my natural judgement and not even think of what I was saying. Like you said, we just have to push away these nagging fears and decide to ignore them. We decide to consciously let our spirits go and do whatever God wants. The amazing thing is, the more I do that when I write, the less I end up having to correct grammar etc.
Reconnecting with what was lost
I think part of what is happening with you, with the body reactions, is that your spirit is re-connecting up with your flesh again. You feel the spirit even more now than you used too. I think that when we come back into the Garden state we reintegrate. We literally start to feel the Spiritual realm like we use to do before the fall. That is my working theory anyway.
Maybe this weekend we can take another trip or do whatever God wants to do. I would like that.
At this point in God, both Esther and I felt like we had passed the point of “no return.” There was no real point in going back acceptable Christianity anyhow. This is holy ground and, in His presence, we might as well let God be and do whatever He wants to do.
Additionally, our spirits feel like they are connected in the spirit. Spiritual union opens us up to all sorts of new experiences. On the other hand, being so vulnerable to one another in our spirits also brings up things that lay buried deep in our pasts. The more we experience spiritual intimacy the more we expose who we really are to each other.
Bearing our souls and spirits to one another
Confessing our faults one to another is a big part of healing our spirits and being transparent in God. When we come before God we cannot bring this world with us. We have to loose it off our feet. As we take off our shame and stand as God intended, the heavens are literally open to us. Eden restored through intimacy with God and each other. Communion regained, oneness achieved. Truly, eye hath not seen, nor ear heard, what our Father has prepared for those who love Him in each other.
Esther mused,
“To know the Lord is to lose the earth. The Scriptures are more than words, they are the ‘literal’ key to God’s Spiritual Kingdom. Do not make the Bible an idol and locked door in your journey with God. Do not kill the Bible by keeping to the letter and not the Spirit of it. It is a spiritual work, not a fictional one. One kills…the other leads to light, love, life and freedom. Words have the power of life and death, not just the ones that roll off the tongue! Choose life!”
Thanks for sharing – I really am enjoying reading your chronicles. . .can relate to so much!
Especially the nighttime closeness. . .for me and my connection, that is the very closest time. I can feel when he is sleeping (if I am awake) and often wake up when he is awake. I have always been able to feel if he is struggling at night or if he has a bad dream. . .God is teaching me discernment to know how to pray and connect to him and love him during those times. . .
I often wake up in the night with the strongest feelings of closeness to him, and that’s when I can “hear his soul” and some things that he says to me the most clearly. In fact, God has instructed me to get up 2-3 hours earlier than my connection usually does, so we can connect early in the morning while he is still sleeping and is more open to spiritual things and to the Lord, and when I am in prayer, so we can meet and I can take us together to the Lord. It’s beautiful, and my absolute favorite part of the day. . .and I can usually feel when he wakes up. . he takes on the “earthly view” feel. . .
I think when we (people in general) are sleeping we completely let our earthly guards down and can really connect to God, especially if we make a point to focus on Him just as we fall asleep.. . .and scripture is clear that dreams are definitely one of the ways God speaks to us. . .
Dreams are a beautiful tool God uses in my connection, too. My connection is in every dream I have. If he is not the central focus, he is at least always on the periphery somewhere where I can see him and/or talk to him. Since we don’t communicate that much, God has shown me that he gives me dreams about him not only for another means for us to connect with each other, but also so I can see how my connection is feeling about things – me and the connection and his walk with God in particular. If my connection’s eyes are closed, he is trying to “ignore” the connection or God and if he is talking with me or we are touching, he is moving close. For so long his eyes were always closed, now at the very least he is watching me intently from a distance, but most of the time we are talking and/or touching. . .it’s beautiful . . .
Thanks so much for sharing your experiences! You guys are a blessing!
Hugs –
Dear CL,
I think you are right about the night time closeness. So many times I wake up suddently to find Esther writing something to me. It is like we are more sensitive to spiritual things and our spirits react quickly to the other person when we slumber.
As more and more people begin to share their testimonies about what happens with spiritual connections a clearer picture emerges on what God is doing. This, in turn, provides a witness to others who are entering into similar things, encouraging them to step out in faith.
Thank you so much for sharing and I pray God move mountains in your life so that His will be done!
Michael